Metal Reviews

2nd time i saw them. great fucking show.

Yes, I never thought that you a were a dick or anything of the such. I knew you cared and wanted my well-being but you know what, sometimes someone has to live through it themselves instead of someone telling you out of love that something isn't going to work for you. I always knew it was out of caring. And for that I am very gracious.

oh. i thought they did.

just wanted to make sure. sometimes i dont know how i come off because im not speaking. no inflection and stuff. but yeah, im a little brutal in my honesty and for that i apologize. people always tell me im harsh.

Yes you can be harsh and I knew that wasn't anything to hold against you or change my mind about you. I got to know you better faster with the situation that came with me being romantically involved.

someone dumped a ton of metal bootlegs at my place like two years ago (didn't make me pay or anything, dude had bought a heap of stuff I had lost interest in at the time the week before at a garage sale, do you Americans have those?) anyway finally decided I should start listening to some of them, turns out I could have saved a shitload of money if I'd done this sooner, no joke I have bought just about everything the guy gave me and the stuff I haven't bought ain't worth having tbh, why the fuck didn't I do this sooner, then again since they're bootlegs I probably still would have bought the albums proper...

Totally. It's all good

just noticed I'm already over 150 posts here, considering (aside from at uni yesterday) I've had no internet since Sunday that's pretty good, doesn't compare to the five and a half thousand I racked up on the other forum since the end of November last year

bet you guys are glad there's another person posting regularly eh?

HOLY SHIT!!! stumbling through that pile of bootlegs and I found something legit, Entombed - Left Hand Path, this day just got so much better

You know what sucks? Going into a Friday night expecting the weekend off, and then getting a phone call Saturday morning saying the stupid cunt my dad just hired didn't show up for work. Guess who gets to cover her 15 hour shift today on 2 hours sleep? Me. Fuck I hate people.

The fights tonight better kick ass.

Weeeeaaaaakkkkkkk.

That sucks dude! That shit used to happen to me all the time when we had our restraunts. I feel for ya!!

She doesn't want a relationship. I don't want to be just as friends. It's time to move on and let her feel what she has missed. A chance for something real special and very long lasting. We had our last meeting on Thursday. She insisted that we stay friends. She told me to call her if I want to stay friends and I said you call me if you want to be more than just friends. End of story. I'm done with the feeling of instability, uncertainty and constant doubt.

Rough break, but probably the best move that you could make.

I think so, too. If I were at a lower emotional state and things we going slowly, I wouldn't have a problem with that. But things aren't like that. We want vastly different things. She is in a different stage in her life than I am in terms of her interior life scheme. I can only hope that she will call me one day which I see as having an exceptionally low probability.

Don't hope for it. Hack off that attachment like cancer. Sever it clean. Or you'll become a miserable old man like myself always waiting.

Yeah... ... I can only fill the void with music, friends and family. Life goes on...

I'm drinking!!! Again. This time with my sisters. I play my own version of asshole where I'm always drunk and they have to drink all the time. Hahaa I feel a blackout coming on, it's gonna be a fucking strange night I can tell.

Friday: had an exam, fortunately the guide dog was feeling much better so I was able to sit it, finish it with extreme ease and bugger off a full half hour before the exam was scheduled to finish

on the bus home everything's fine, got my iPod and enjoying Iron Saviour then King Diamond when this old chinese dude gets on the bus, which is absolutely packed by this point, dude looks, sees no spare seats, sees me and the guide dog, asks the bus driver to make me GET OFF THE BUS!!! bus driver says no, dude asks why not, driver explains, guy asks again, driver explains again, ten minutes of this before the chinese bloke finally gets off the bus and goes to catch another. get home, ten minutes to quickly get changed and ready for track cycling training, pull it off and get there only twenty minutes late instead of the hour I was expecting, training was great as usual, seem to be a natural on the tandem, paralympics in Rio here I come lol

Saturday: sore as hell from not getting in a proper warm-up before I jumped on the bike Friday night, no footy to watch, no cricket to watch, get me clothes washed and clean up before noticing two UFC dvds I didn't know I had, watch 'em and see Anderson Silva defend his middle weight title at UFC 73 via KO in round one as the main event decent day

today: Blind Cricket game SA Blind Cricket team v Adelaide University's (fully sighted) cricket team, late start unfortunately but should be good, before that need to get some new cycling gear, plus a nes set of batting gloves and inners

My sisters are trying to confuse me into going on a sting site. Wtf: I never did a dating site, why would I?? I DI well on my own. Shit never
Lasts but that's my own fault. I don't trust women. Ever since you know who. I have never trusted a chic, they are kinda like the enemy when it comes to my emotions, my sisters think u could meet someone fully compatible on a dating site; I'm scrptical, what the fuck fo you Gus think????

It's entirely possible. Don't fight your emotions!! And don't ever generalize all girls being what you "think" they are. That would be your worse nightmare. That way, you will never meet anyone, and if you do, which I'm sure of it, you will throw her off because of your past negative experiences. You MUST look past that now. It's time! Go for it and give it a try.