Metal Reviews

I'm assuming you mean brandy. "Brandi" is more of a common lapdancer name.

That! You're assumption could not have been taken any other way!

I don't know. I enjoy lap dances no matter what state I'm in.

Thanks Nima, i appriciate the sympathy man, i was just whining because i felt really shitty. And no, i don't have any brandy lying around in the house, i rarely touch alcohol and i don't smoke and i don't do drugs, too straight edge for that my friend haha. I do have other vices like eating bad food and drinking to much soda and eating candy...but i'm working on those

You're most welcome, buddy. I love drinking pop and having candy, too. I always say to myself: things in moderation. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't

Just watched the latest Downton Abbey. All tearing up :(

IKR.

man, Felix Baumgartner is so going to be drowning in pussy after today. i know he's married or committed or something, but he don't need that shit no more.

the broadcast sucked though, why the fuck was 90% of the descent shown as a blurry dot? did the helmet cam malfunction or something? i bet that's the angle the vast majority of viewers were looking for!

Having a bit of an important talk with her tomorrow. Hope it goes well so we can move into new territories.

As I understand it, the cameras on his suit weren't supposed to be streaming live, just recording.

Best of luck, boss.

Thanks a lot, man. Here is hoping things can move forward

well folks, today is a good day i got my date for the end of my involvement with the system.(that was a wordy way of saying parole) november 5th i am totally free. today i am happy.

now i have to actually think about some shit though. since i got out on parole ive been a very good boy. i only go out to go to work and to go to shows. jesus! i started using a computer. hell may freeze over. i have to admit i like the way things are at the moment. i like staying home. i like the computer. my main fear is when im off parole and the fear of going back to prison for the slightest fuck up is gone i may revert back to my old ways. this scares me. i dont want to be a fuck up the rest of my life. ive come a long ways from what i was but its not hard to go backwards. idk i guess im actually really worried about this. its hard to know weather ive done so well because i had to do well or because i wanted to. i have to admit in the beginning of this i did what i had to do because i had to do it not because i wanted to do it.

only time will tell what may happen now i guess. i just dont know what my brain will do when the fear of impending incarceration is taken away. i dont want to be the old me anymore but idk if just not wanting is enough.

i was happy when i started this post. now im not happy anymore. WTF???

How about you stop being a whiny bitch and do what the fuck you want to do? How about you not get yourself in trouble? Life choices, boss. Just keep riding the wave of making good ones that you've had to make thus far. You got a lot more positive energy behind you right now than you do negative and so the only way that is going to change is if you let things affect you and put you back into that negative mindset.

haha i dont think that was whiny. was it? yeah im sure shit will be fine i guess. i just dont know how i made it this far. ive always been a self destructive kind of guy. so im a little worried. hahaha i wouldnt call it whiny though. if it was whiny i apologize. it wasnt meant to sound whiny.

oh and generally "what i want to do" is never good. haha

thanks for the input though trapt.

stop being a whiny bitch made lol. im still giggling.

You weren't whiny. I was just being an ass for the laughs. You're going to have to find new things that you want to do. Legal things to be precise. Shows. Bowling. Baking. Butter some biscuits if you know what I mean. Online date, bro. Go out and get some drinks with a lady. Get your dick wet. Honestly, whatever it takes to make you happy, barring what will get you sent to prison.

your absolutely correct trapt. except the online dating. im good with in person dating. but yeah in all seriousness i need a plan. a set of rules to live by that dont get me in trouble. i cant go back to prison again. not even for myself (i personally dont really give a fuck) but for my family. my grandmothers wont be able to deal and my mom will lose it. my sisters. all that good family shit. they say you should always do things for yourself or else you wont stick with it. i say fuck all that noise cause when someone like me who doesnt really care about themselves so much tries doing stuff for themselves they fail. i know i have tried. but i came this far for my family. i can keep on doing it for them as well.

november 5th. no more asking permission to go to shows. no more having to worry if i drink is my officer gonna come by to breathylize me. no more bullshit. good times.

thanks trapt. for the pep talk. really i appreciate it more than you know.

Like Trapt said occupy yourself with the opposite of what gets you in trouble dude. It won't be easy because of the thrill sought but you HAVE to do it not just because of you but because of your family. You gotta love yourself a bit more, buddy. Life sometimes works that way. Try to be kind to yourself and get into less trouble. Stop hanging out with the wrong people. Stop doing things that you have a strong feeling might be potential for trouble! Yeah, date! Find a nice a girl and you'll be a different man before you know it.

On other fronts: Me and my lady friend have sort out a lot of things. Me and her have so much in common, so much chemistry and so much positive feelings and compatibility that I think letting this go would've been purely absurd because of anything that might've bothered me a few weeks ago.

So I just purchased 21 feet of white fleece fabric in order to sew myself a Max costume for Halloween. Now I just need to find a fox tail somewhere online.

I feel like sharting on your grave, pigfucks. Fucking pigfucks. Every where I look, pigfucks.

Pok, pok, pok...Gangnam style.