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Oh my god, it's real...

I've been studying everything about the Larynx and every note I hit is a legit natural range tone. My falsetto also covers my entire range itself. My voicebox can be condensed down to about two inches or expanded to over 9 inches long

My voice is much different physically than what everyone else has. Maybe some friends of mine thought I would like it better.

I mean stuff is not where it is supposed to go at all. and I have either slowly made this so or have very patiently learned how to use what someone else decided needed to be there. It is no wonder I completely could not produce any decent results.

They're airing this half-assed French series here, that deals with the inquisition in the south of France circa 1370, the black death and everything. The main character is a twisted great inquisitor, zealous as hell (haha) and unforgiving. A real misguided asshole.

Point is: since I started watching this show I've been taking an interest in Christianity (and shit). As in, becoming a religious person. That character is so convinced and everything is so crystal-clear in his head that it makes his beliefs somewhat appealing to me, even though he's obviously full of shit and wrong regarding just about everything. He knows the purpose of his own existence and I envy him for that. You have no idea how much.

I read the Old Testament a few years ago when I was suffering of severe insomnia (it helped falling asleep 50% of the time, thank God for that I guess...) and thought it was a fantastic and unmatchable pile of crap, but, I don't know. There's something, I can't name what exactly. Maybe I'll read the New.

I've mixed beers with medication tonight (I almost never do that of course) so I'm probably not entirely lucid. Still, makes me wonder: can I be a religious dude? Am I able to live a lie? Am I willing to? There's so much shit in my life I'm maybe just being vulnerable and weak. I don't know.

Somehow I doubt it but I'll ask anyway, have some of you been there before?

Oh and Addy: blog. I'll do the same. Haha.

It's a crutch, is religion, that as an atheist I don't have. Have always envied the religious their faith and indeed, I do wish I could believe in the way they do, for the positive effects that it can have. But I don't, so I have to rely on other things, like family, friends, music, books, games, films, tv shows, hobbies, and girlfriend. Instead of chasing religion and wanting to live a lie, Bruce, why not aim for one (preferably more!) of the above? Why not live the truth?

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*disclaimer: is also drinking*

Because I've been living the truth for 30 years and, it just feels hollow. Like everything is pointless. Well, it is, but this bothers me now more than it ever has before, for some reason.
I think I'm just going to sleep on that.

You'll feel better in the morning. But you do need something to fill that hollow - it's something we all feel, and we all need to fill, whether with alcohol, music, relationships, family, art, politics, or all of the above. Existence is meant to be *LIVED*, not just sat through. Embrace it, go salsa dancing or ask a woman out at the library. Seize the day, Bruce, because tomorrow may never come, but today never comes again!

just don't become a fucking mormon

They're a non-existant species where I live so, no worries.

@Zad: yeah, well. I'm leaving for Malaga (Spain) in 10 days, for a week. It's going to be sun and beach, mostly. Maybe it'll do me some good. Better to start with that than with a fucking cross around my neck, I suppose. Ha.

I love Husker's advice. Can't argue with that!

A holiday will be good, Bruce, change of scenery. Going for religion without faith is a bit of a desperate move, must be better ways of doing it...

True Religion: the sacrifice Christ made for humanity: his "thought" of being God in man-flesh: believing in the absurd from the worshiper: eternal salvation = delusion and the absurd which would be the Kierkegaardian interpretation.

Totally, and perfectly knowing it and yet not freaking out makes me a really desperate dude. Hey, thanks btw.

I think I'm baked, time to stop the nonsense and sleep.

Fuck that shit: are you Noodles or Heatseeker?
Jesus, you must be in a total lovey-dovey relationship.

Brucie: I'm not religious, or generally a cheery person, but I've found some clarity in the brutally grounded elements of Theravada Buddhism. I find the root of all suffering=desire stuff instructive. Or Goat's other instruction to look for a change of scenery, any change of scenery might help.

Bitter old man, you are. ;)


(Have never been salsa dancing, for the record...)

I prefer the label, moderately jealous, thank you.

And on the lack of salsa dancing.

Religion is fucking bullshit.

Every place I go I see some mother fucker who's wearing a cross around their neck or has a cross tattooed on them or some shit. It's fucking lame.

I had a friend who got "saved" and he was the biggest bullshit mother fucker ever, would randomy steal from people in his early 20's when over at their house, would sell drugs, just a shady mother fucker, hit's up church now to play bass in church band while trying to hit on the women and then shows up to smoke weed and drink four loko's at this kid's house right after. fuck that kid.

I'm remembered!

Hi guys

Haven't posted in too long. Summer break before senior year of college...damn. I was like 15 when I joined here o_o

Wow, welcome back.

Also, the appealing thing about religion is the sense of community. You have people to hang out with all the time and do stuff that matters (matters to religious people)... it just makes you a happier person.

Ooh... You actually might be spot-on. I'll dig into the subject, yes. Definitely interesting, thanks.

And hi Heatseeker!

Indeed! Hey man, been a while.

My mother's cancer has spread. I won't be around for a while. Take care people.