Metal Reviews

Umm...what did I miss?

lol.

Feeling slightly frustrated because my laptop's dead. I'm borrowing my brother's at the moment but he needs it himself so I'll have to give it back in half an hour or so. I have a presentation on tuesday about PTSS and the effect of one's age when the trauma occured, which I had saved on my laptop so now I basically have nothing. Hopefully I can arrange something.

Moving. Again. This time to my actual apartment though. The apartment is furnished, but I kinda want to burn all the furnishings, but alas my stuff is in Ohio anyways. Fifty pound boxes of books are getting old though. I only have six of my twelve total but still.

i emailed the girl i had a crush on telling her i miss her

oops

I'm in a church at a wedding. I honestly thought I would burst into flames upon entering. I guess god isn't real.

Stop being beta and claim that shit.

im drunk. fuuuuuck yeeaaaah

on monday at around 10 am i am fucking freeeeeee. yes.

it'll never happen. she unmans me like no other

also thousands of miles away

even the stuff she writes in emails is all kinds of adorable and awesome

My situation:

My lady friend and I have so many things in common. So many shared emotions and rationale that we can share and enjoy. So much chemistry and comfort that we both share. So much joy and happiness that streams from being together.

The problem:

She wants everything at once. She is an assistant manager at a coffee shop. So she works full-time. She's going to school part time. She will start full-time next semester at a new college in town. She wants her social life and really fears and is extremely insecure about losing her opportunities if she starts a serious relationship with me.

My acceptance:

I know things might not work out. She's 22 and I'm 27. She is going to an extremely slow progressive nature in her realization of what she really wants in her life. A serious relationship? Her career as social-worker? Hanging out with her girl friends?

My knowledge:

I have told her that she can have all of that and still be with me and commit. She hasn't really realized that and its not going to be an over-night decision for her to make.

My question:

Nothing much. My intuition tells me what she will say. She really likes me and I feel the same way. Whatcha all think?

My sorrow:

She will choose otherwise.

@DI. Idk man. I wish I could give some good advice but my advice before was shitty so I'll refrain from any advice giving. Hopefully she chooses you.

No worries

I got nothing, bro. Hopefully she takes a shot at it rather than letting you down.

This. It's all in her hands now. You've shown her what a great guy you are and the fact that she doesn't dismiss you right away at least says something, right? Decisions like these are tough and there's no doubt in my mind she's absolutely struggling with this inside her head. Just have patience my friend.

Second the patience thing. If you try and 'make' it happen it just may scare her off. I think you only begin to make things work after you have something tangible to preserve.

My head hurts and my stomach is fucked. And the electric slide is stuck in my head. Fuck!

I have the faith the stay in this with her. Its been two months. The more I go out with her and see her the more attached to her I become. I am falling for her. I do have the courage to stay the course to the very end and get hurt knowing that I persevered than letting go now and knowing in my heart that I was a coward. Life is so unfair although I feel at peace with myself...

What the fuck is going on here.

The Theater of Tragedy!