Metal Reviews

Heh, was actually talking about something else.

Blame Ken anyways?

I fell for a lesbian. By lesbian, I mean bisexual but seeing photos on facebook of her in Spain with the girl she is with is a little awkward. I'm out with other women but don't necessarily post that online and we never made any solemn promises to not see other people. Mind you, when she gets back in June, I am totally going to try to get with her again (compulsory heterosexuality) because I really like her but still... so awkward.

I will be handing in my Psychology paper tomorrow which I'm quite happy about. I'll be having three exams in two days which is somewhat extreme but there isn't anything I can do about it. It'll all be history come the 17th of December. And after that I will be working my ass for 15 days before it'll all start again come January. Oh how wonderful life is!!!

Flathunting.

A little hungover this morning. My grey jeans are smeared with blue dye from jeans due to grinding with a lady last night. It cracks me up every time I look at it.

Downing some chai tea and doing PhD application bullshit. So tiresome.

Way to go, Trapt!

Been super excited/nervous for the last 3-4 days about a presentation I'm giving tomorrow. It's only 10% of my grade and in front of 11 or so people, but "performing" does this to me (although usually not to this extent). So far end of semester hasn't been nearly as busy as I thought it'd be. Probably because I anticrastinated hardcore on two of my term papers. go me go. Need to write a 15 page paper over the weekend to stay on pace. I've thought and planned it out a ton so I'm hoping that'll mean the writing goes fast.

Been falling back into the habit of wasting too much time on the internet and not practicing piano regularly. Would like to overcome that.

Woah

Yeah, I've been spending way too much time on the internet and I'm a little sick right now. But life is fucking good...although my time in Chile studying is coming to end. It's pretty much incredible, though.

Presentation went about as well as I could've hoped. yay. Now to write two papers. Having time to spend alone with girlfriend would be pretty great. Hasn't happened much lately... except I guess when we were both sick.

Braindead after spewing sociology bullshit for hours. Still need 2000 words by monday. Dammit.

I got really fucked up last night and didnt get home till 7 a.m. During that night one of the girls there seemed like she was hitting because she went " guys from her side of town are wack and now im looking for guys from the other side" atleast it went something like that and im from the other side of town and she was looking at me and my friend goes "she's looking at you dude" that kinda was a dead give away and im kinda mad he blew up her spot. I thought about making a move to make sure but i decided i was too fucked up and it wasn't a good time for it.

I only need a conclusion for my Heidegger paper. It's turning out to be a good paper. In terms of the ladies, well, I casually asked this very hot girl out at my university and she didn't say no, and also casually accepted. Chances are: she already has a boyfriend! Something like her is highly skeptical and surprising if single. I cannot be sure, though. Either way, she seems like a good friend to have, to say the least, it being something of a girlfriend or just simply friends, which I usually have never had such a friend, and prefer not to have one, to be quite frank.

Nevertheless, I cannot say if it's a good thing or not because I have never had one. The only thing I know is that when becoming friends and also becoming comfortable with each other, I imagine it would be hard, or rather the feeling might die, as to the passion and desire to engage into a romantic relationship with the opposite (in the process of knowing her). It would be odd to go to bed with a "girl" friend into she becoming your girlfriend, I would think! The passion might die during the process of knowing her or it might grow. In the small experience that I had, now that I think of it, that passion and desire to engage in the potential sexual and romantic feeling towards that particular person died in me.

Thoughts?

You're over-thinking it. Relax, be yourself, and have a good time.

Maybe you're right. Thanks, Zad .

imo stuff will effortlessly fall into place (at first) if both people are interested.


Girlfriend likes to sleep in warm/hot room, but heaters make me feel hungover in the morning. Not sure how to get around this :\

I couldn't agree more. I actually am not in a rush at all (not even in the slightest). I do enjoy single life (not that I sleep around). I only asked her because it has been a long time since I was interested and wanted to ask someone out, and more importantly ,I didn't want to feel out of form or something . It does get harder when you become distance from something like dating, though. However, I do believe when someone "right" comes along it naturally comes to you.

i feel you on that who single life thing, not having to worry about a girlfriend can make life so much easier. If you saw my earlier post in this thread i have something going on with a girl too. she's very hot too i may add. But i don't feel the need to rush it. I'm just waiting for a good moment to ask her out and when im sober. lately ive been on various things for the past couple weeks. But dude as others have said to you here. Don't get so stressed. We all get nervous. I'm nervous myself because i usually get rejected and what not, and i'm not 100% sure she likes me. I mean she has been hinting that she might like me but still that could just be her being close as in friend zone. But it never hurts to try anyway right?

Right. I strongly feel like anything else one has to practice things like dating. I did see your earlier posts and I was going to reply to it but I got caught up doing something else. The fact of the matter is that, the first and end to a relationship, before it becomes anything serious or prior to that is this: the girl must feel secure and safe around you. Creating that situation is something that is not the easiest thing to achieve but one cannot attempt very hard in doing so because it might have a different impression on the girl. As I've said before, my only reason for asking the girl out (casually) was just to test myself again that I haven't created a wall of whatever you want to call it, in not being able or simply not caring (essentially) to ask her out.

It really is, like last night me and her were alone for a bit because she had to drop off her car at her house then go to were me and her and friends were gonna enjoy some beers and weed. A good opertunity but at the same time it didn't feel like the right time. I really wish there was an easy way to get her alone with me and a good place for it. So i can deff see why you said that. Dating is one tough cookie to learn.

U-hmm... Take your time, but don't let those right moments pass by, either.