following the reaper wrote:
For no reason today I calculated the amount of girls i had actually asked out in my entire life. The list stood at 6. 6 fantastic failures.
So now im sitting here pretending like im really comtemplating suicide this time. Yeah right.
wow.. 6!? then you have more experience than me

I have never asked a girl out for several reasons. Some of the times it's because i don't want to make a fool of myself. These days however, the reason is that i don't want a short term relationship, those i see no point in, but at the same time i don't think i stand being with another person for longer periods of time, unless they are speciel. Most ppl drive me nuts after a while, with all their bullshit based on "assholecy" and ignorance.. and then moodswings.. i hate when ppl have that, and girls.. well, they are hard to figure out

.. and if i do find someone speciel i feel she's out of my league, in terms of personality. I feel confident about my own look and i see ugly guys with gorgeous girls all the time, so it shouldn't be a problem, ha ha

besides, i have no interest in girls who judge me on my appearance. That's somewhat why i've been looking like a hobo for 2 years now, but nobody seemed interested

- it's a superficial country i live in i suppose. That is also why i've changed my appearence back to the way it used to be 3-4 years ago, got fed up by all the bullshit, stupid comments and moronic prejudices i recieved all day long. All ppl could talk to me about was my hair and my clothes, as if that was the most interesting for me to talk about 12 hours a day
Anyway, i hate going out, and i would never ever ask a girl out i didn't knew already. And the last obstacle is; i don't want to ask a girl out i know, cuz it could ruin the small amount of friendsship we might had had. So you see.. i have nothing but trouble on that area
my only hope is that some hot milf one day walks up to me on the street and lure me into her web where i will stay till i die, exsorted from all the hot loving and all the spanking... w00ops, did i just say that?