Metal Reviews

Just skip it. It's all bollocks anyway.

Says the guy with nobody to celebrate with.

What? Surely my cat counts!

I wanted so much from that tumblr and it failed me.

Decided to take the day off today and try to get healthy, which feels like the right decision. Lingering sickness >:[. It might start feeling like the wrong decision as I try to finish off the semester's work before leaving for home next Tuesday.

so i went to a "natural wine"* bar near my place to start off the my birthday night out, since i was turning 27 and being sort of an adult now i should do something more classy than drinking in the streets like a bum.

we went in and ordered the cheapest bottle. at this place where everyone took wine so seriously, my friend pointed to it and said "i would like that flower bottle please". the waiter warned us that it has a slight bubble, we said it was fine. then he opened it at the table and i swear, guys, i swear, that it smelled like shit. like fertilizer. it smelled overwhelmingly of shit, or, if you prefer, it had a noticeable "fecal note" to it. it was so intense it practically jumped out of the glass. you'd think the waiter would warn us about that. reminded me of that HIMYM episode where Robin is about to meet Barney's brother and Ted warns her that he's gay, and then it turns out that he's also black.

*while legally it is still sort of poorly defined, think zero intervention in the vineyard and in the winery - no filtration, no oak, no sulfites and whatever.

lol

if i ever go to a natural wine place i will ask for one that doesnt smell like poo

Funny story Azrael.

lol thanks.

i had been there before but only for a glass (of white wine, this was red), it was really good. this time i was afraid of asking whether this was normal for fear of offending him or sounding like some wine philistine.

winephillistine4life.

Frustrated because I missed a journal's deadline. It's yearly I guess so I'll just save what I was going to write for next year but still.

My final papers are all decent ideas this year, but are really slow in going to paper and that sucks. Also I'm fucking broke and that sucks. I need to order books for a final assignment too.

Had the blues the last couple days. Like I finished my schoolwork and now I have a tiny annoying hole of emptiness and purposelessness in my life that I want to fill with awesome people but awesome people are not always available.

Settling into places is weird. Coming back to Montreal I thought I was having a life crisis for the first week but now I'm just thinkin 'sup y're p cool'.

Does it pair well with Limburger cheese?

can't even imagine the combined stench...

back in Brazil, some cookie thing didn't let me log in to the forum. how are you guys?

new year's in Rio de Janeiro was a blast, and i'm headed to Florianopolis for Carnaval on friday!

I'm doing decently. Trying to manage loneliness in Montreal and stress in grad school. Not entirely sure why I get stressed out since I'm doing great grade-wise and the workload isn't overwhelming. It just feels vague and overwhelming quite often. Not sure why I get lonely either since between my roommate and his family, classmates, dancing, and neighbours down the road I see people fairly often. Not meeting a lot of thrilling ladies here I suppose.

Gotta figure out my future since I'm thinking a master's degree is enough philosophy for me but I'm not sure where to go next. I enjoy teaching and I enjoy writing papers and from feedback I seem to be good at both, but at the same time hearing my friends talk about what they're doing in speech language pathology, kinesiology, and music therapy sounds a lot cooler and more useful than looking at how Hegel's critiques of Kant in two of his early writings show his intellectual development ;_;. Doing my readings and research also feels a lot more like a chore than it did as an undergrad and that worries me.

Can I ask what university in Montreal you're doing grad school, noodles? Sorry to hear about the loneliness and stress, mate... In my experience, it's something that can just hit you in grad school. I also hear you on the "what I'm doing seems a lot less interesting than what other people are doing". But keep in mind that grad school is a lot more of a job than undergrad, and like any job, you often become less passionate about what you're doing when it becomes the focus of your life. Anyway, not saying you should go on to a PhD, just that you may find the program more enjoyable as you go on/meet people that you really like.

In any case, enjoy the shit out of Montreal! I miss the hell out of that place and wish I could be back there. Eat some La Banquise and Romados and drink some Dieu de Ciel and Distillerie for me.

I still need to go to Dieu du Ciel

anyway today i met got all excited about a paper i read and a talk i went to and i met an interesting girl. lol life

I've noticed the grad school being more like a job thing. It's a mixed bag. On one hand, I don't feel the "passion", but on the other I don't get as emotionally invested in my papers so I don't mind proofreading them over and over again and showing them to anyone who'll look and give comments. When I was an undergrad I found it difficult to even look at them after typing them up and wouldn't show them to anyone but the teacher. So there's less exhilaration but my work is a lot better.

My girlfriend of two years dumped me in June after I slept with one of her stripper colleagues and I kinda went into a downward spiral, sleeping on mates' couches for 5 months because the housing market in Aberdeen is a fucking nightmare. By the time I got a place for myself (which is still shit) it was November and my last year of uni had been going on for 2 months so obviously I was way behind on everything and my dissertation wasn't going at all and everything was stressful and shit. I was depressed and having near anxiety attacks and no motivation whatsoever and got some insomnia which ended up with me drinking a bottle of wine and some beers every night just to fall asleep.

So I withdrew from uni, applied for readmission in September to do fourth year again, saw Aberdeen win the League Cup the other week, I'm going to Bergen to visit a lovely girl in April and in May I'm going to St Petersburg for three months to take an intensive Russian language course and teach ESL (English as a Second Language) to Russian school kids. Gonna be fun. Things are looking up.