Metal Reviews

We bought a new car today and now I'm sitting here watching a show about Yosemite National Park while listening to Karma To Burn's self titled first release.

First of all, I would like to say that I enjoy reading your posts DI. Being part of this forum means you follow a lot of different people's lives. It's especially meaningful when you're able to relate to the stories that are being told.

I can definitely relate to your story as I also went slow when I met my first and only girlfriend. Now, I don't think you should feel disheartened by the fact that she isn't jumping at you instantly, because she is probably, as your story states, in it for the long haul. Personally, I think it sounds wonderful. I mean, she openly stated that she wants someone to be with for the rest of her life (whether or not this is positive is for you to decide) and she didn't, as far as I know, tell you that you are not that person.

I think you're good.

Thank you man. I appreciate your integrity. I think what I'm in for is something truly magical but the magic has yet to come and as Kyle and Noodzi have stated, it will take quite a while for it to reach those stages. I mean its been magical already but the true magic has yet to be felt.

I've always felt that DW is missing out on a spectacular career at Hallmark Greeting Cards. His powers of empathy, sympathy, and general honesty make him a natural.

DI, Edge gave some good advice and it is great that we can and do share some personal stuff with each other. I'll weigh in with my story: When I met my wife we were already in relationships and really were not looking for any romantic involvement outside of those relationships. We became fast friends and found that we could talk to each other about anything, which we did quite a bit. A year or so later my relationship ended but she was still in hers. I never ever once considered that she might be interested in me at all (I have great self-esteem) so we just remained great friends until during a conversation she explained that her relationship was having some trouble. We were in mid conversation and she just freaked out and hung up the phone abruptly. I thought I had pissed her off or something. I couldn't figure out what the hell was going on. She called a few days later and asked to meet me for lunch, I was happy to know that we were still friends and of course I said yes to the invitation. She explained that during the phone call it suddenly hit her that everything that was right with our friendship was everything that was wrong in her relationship. She then said, 'It just hit me that I love you and I need to get out of this other relationship.' Almost 15 years later we're still together.

I tell that in an effort to say that if it's going to happen, it will. I know that's incredibly cliched but I think that it's true. My advice would be to enjoy the great time you spend together doing anything and just see where it goes. In my case, it was so cool to have a best friend before it evolved. It sounds like that may be what your friend is looking for too. I love being able to say that years later we talk ad nauseum, share everything, and are perfectly content doing nothing together. Hang in there and I hope it all turns out well.

Thanks, Mike! I immensely appreciate you sharing a very personal story. It means a lot to me. I will hang in there and see what destiny (I've always hated that word) holds in stock for me.

I hooked up with my girlfriend the night we met, 3 nights later we were in bed. It can happen fast as well.

C'mon, that only applies to superstuds like Fridge.

Yeah. That's happened a lot to me, too. This case is extremely different, though. This is a chance for something lasting.

I think you're being extremely sarcastic...

ah man, when my ex and i admitted our feelings for each other after some months of a close friendship it was the best feeling ever.

Now I wonder what you originally wrote.

Of course I was teasing Fridge for his "stud" reputation on the forum.

Of course...

Did I suddenly become Wally? Where did I ever say anything less than pleasant about your adventures with the new female friend?

Before Fridge found the "one", this thread sort of became his personal sexcapades column. I made fun of him then, I was just alluding to that now.

Oh, gosh! That's adorable. I almost like positive relationship story version of this thread more than the depressing, commiserating version about how women all suck. But let's be honest, this thread was at its best when Fridge was on the prowl.

ok so i got home like 30 mins ago from down. as i said earlier my buddy brought his girl with him. i had never met her before. i only met him because of parole. he got out a month and a half after me and our parole officer asked me to give him rides to report twice a week in exchange for having my community service voided. so i jumped on that opportunity. so this guy turned out to be really cool and at this point 16 and a half months later we are friends. he likes stoner, doom, thrash, and rock and i like everything. he doesnt like the harsher vocal styles and i do but we meet in the middle on certain things and thats great. so i met his gf tonight she is really cool as well.

so there goes some back story. now i may drift into depression for awhile. btw im drunk and will most likely regret posting this tomorrow. i regret posting many things actually. but here goes.

so im alone in life. i try and make myself believe i am better and to some extent deserve to be alone for all my past mistakes and whatnot. fact is being alone is lonely. lonely fuckin sucks. im a good guy. despite my past and even during my past ive always been a decent person. im very hard on myself for the mistakes ive made and my self esteem is in the fuckin crapper. there was a time when i was so confident i could get anyone if i wanted them. now i cant even look people in the eye. ive done some awful shit but im not a really bad person. idk. i never used to think about things this deeply. tonight it just hit me. seeing them together. how nice it must be to get to go home and just not be alone.

fuck. why am i even typing all this shit. i hate sympathy. i really dont have anyone i can talk to. lets face it everyone i know is a criminal for the most part. idk how i got to this point. i deal with these people and i cant be myself. i have to put on the hard guy front when believe it or not i am not that. if anything im a sensitive overly emotional wreck of a man.

most of the people i know are not good people. some are. but most arent. ive known these people for a very long time and they think im one person when im really not that person.

idk im debating wether i post this. im gonna post this for one reason.

i have been totally honest in this forum. no exagerrations. anything ive said has been true. to the people who have read anything ive posted about my life this is for you. i dont want you to think im some asshole tough guy asshole. im not that guy. unfortunatly i had to play that role for some time. but thats not ME. so this is the other side of the guy youve been chatting with for 2 or 3 weeks. i cant remember how long but hopefully this makes sense to some degree and you understand what it is im trying to convey to you here. and i want all of you to know who i am because i like you all. i want to stick around if you will have me.

fuck. i am a long winded ass.

whoa.

i read that you went to prison, but i never associated you with a tough guy asshole image.

as for the way you feel... don't.

Oh I wasn't implying anything, buddy! Seriously, I knew your intentions

BUDDY!

So, you have had a bit to drink and now everything from your past has come back to bother you in some way. Listen! What you have been in the past matters, BUT, what you are now matters more. You have never came off as someone that was an asshole or wanted to prove himself somehow to everybody else. I think you're a very decent person with great HUMANE qualities. You are for one a conscientious person and that's not how criminals are defined. They are defined as people WITHOUT a moral or ethical dilemma. No conscious at all! You have a dilemma. You are always trying to become a better person. Being lonely is a terrible thing. I empathize. I have been there. At some point, I lost most of my friends. It was only then that I found out about my true and loyal friends. If you don't have that... try to let go of the friends that are polluted. Let them go... Keep away, or stay as further from them as possible. Making new friends is always a possibility. Try prominent online date sites. They do help sometimes. Not that I've tried them but I know it works for people. It's not the end of all hopes. THERE IS HOPE, BROTHER. The morning star and the night stars will always be there. Just see them and you will find. Slowly seek and you shall find. In terms of how you deal with your past... alcohol and drugs are not the way. You don't seem like a big drinker nor someone that would do drugs a lot, but behold that it's an easy way out.

I hope this helped.

I actually don't drink a lot. My tolerance is way low. I don't remember posting too much of this. Ehhhh. I'm embarrassed. Please disregard my drunken rant. Thanks guys though for the responses. I'm a emotional drunk. That's the only excuse I have. Haha. today besides being hung over I'm fine.