Metal Reviews

Three finals today. Slept awfully last night. This is going to be a great day.

I wish my mind wasn't so restless, so i can actually go to sleep at a normal time -.-

Having a hard time bringing myself to write my last essay for the semester. It's all planned out and stuff, just gotta get the words down. Hopefully I'll have some time at work today to start it but if that's not the case then I definitely have to get things going tomorrow. Then when it's done I'll have three weeks+ of nothing to do except Christmas.

gf was supposed to come over last night but didn't. disappointing!

Thanks to Hurricane Bawbag my girlfriend and I were late with handing in our essays.

My paper on Marx just hit a huge roadblock trying to decipher Hegel's meaning of inorganic nature that Marx draws from. Fuck Hegel.

Bought one of those evil fancy modern phoning devices. Sony Eriksson Xperia Ray. Boy are those things complicated.

1996 was much better.

Feeling nervous. I have 7 Partial Differential Equations with non-homogenous boundary conditions to solve for my final. It's a take home and we've had two weeks to do it.
Should probably start now.....

I finally got the girl's phone number in my Psychology class, Erin. I was as one is suppose to be on first moves casual or maybe a little too casual for my taste. But, frankly, I haven't had good experiences with being more intertwined with my emotions in the past; so I try to be as normal and ordinary as possible before I think there is a glance of hope in it becoming a relationship or whatever it may be called. I think I'm going to call her so we can study for the final test together. You know, start it as a friendship kind of thing and see where it takes me. I still am not in fond of that kind of approach but that is the best thing that comes to my mind. We'll see what signals I get and what I can send, and at some point, be straight with her. As Zad said, I'm probably analyzing it too much but you usually you have to do analyze these kind of things once you pass 20 something because you're not a kind anymore. After 26 at least.

Totally, take it easy, not over-analyzing it too much. If you study together, and you get hungry ask her if she wants to get a bite to eat. If she's interested she'll totally follow or if she's not she'll use that as an excuse to pack up and be done studying. I kinda want to look back on this thread three years ago to see my ramblings about meeting my last girlfriend. It totally started through her and I being assigned to the same group in a class. We would meet together to work on stuff and rather than working on things we would just talk and show each other things we like. If you get the chance to study with her and don't end up studying, you're doing it right, mon frere.

Yeah, that's what I have in mind. She is very sociable (but self-contained as well which I love). My plan is to text her in the next 24 hours and ask her if she would like to go over the material and get together for a coffee or something. That's the first step, and I'll go on from there and will report back how it goes with severe details . Thanks for the support, Trapt.

great fucking weekend.

some friends from the Mexico days came to town for our course's graduation ceremony, it was great. saw many of my classmates again, drank, ate out, partied and showed everyone how beautiful and awesome Lisbon can be.

Deciding whether I want to go to grad school is hard. Friend told me I should apply to a couple anyways because being accepted doesn't mean I have to go. So that moved the problem to wondering what I'd use as a writing sample and which teachers I'd ask for a reference letter. Wish I could just shut this stuff off until I'm done with this semester's work but my brain doesn't want to.

Spent the weekend with my family for my Grandpa's funeral. Didn't really do much but eat and spend time with family. Agalloch is such a great band to listen to on a long car ride. It's just so relaxing, especially when your tired and half asleep just thinking and waiting to get back home. Prolly gonna go out in a bit to chill with my best friend then pass the fuck out.

I'll be meeting to "study" with an acquaintance of mine tomorrow that can have potential for a future girlfriend. I don't even know if she's single or not. She looks like it, but you never know (this is the same girl I was talking about before). Anyhow, I have studied quite hard for my coming Psychology test tomorrow, so I'll be hoping I can keep things in mind, for it is purely a multiple choice exam; a 100 of them. I also hope our studying goes well and I can figure out if she is interest in me or not. We'll see...

Grad school is pretty awesome. Plus Ontario has the Theory and Criticism program which is kinda fucking awesome. Apply, if people give you money, try it out for a semester. With philosophy, if you get a Master's you can basically do anything with it contrary to what people say. A friend just graduated and works at a publishing company, reading manuscripts.

Downfall of grad school: sitting in my office, needing to write 20 pages this week.

Grad school is something I'm definitely thinking of. So trapt, you did a course based one? What areas were your studies in?

I'm working on my Master's in philosophy and a certificate in Women's, Gender and Sexuality Studies. I'll have taken 10 subject courses in philosophy and 4 in WGSS to complete those two documents. Philosophy courses have been everything from courses on Descartes to Heidegger to Psychoanalysis to Queer Theory. I am currently applying to a broad spectrum of PhD programs, some philosophy ones, an english program, a sociology program and some cultural studies programs which is kinda like english meets philosophy where people do theory on race, class, gender, ability and sexuality.

After thinking about it more, I think I'd be disappointed with my life if I didn't at least try going to grad school. And I've only got one philosophy class left and I don't feel like I've got it mastered yet. Or at least I'm not sick of it yet.

Why doesn't swing dancing happen every night that I'm on winter holidays? >:[

Another boring ass day but eh i realized a couple things. Facebook is a stupid waste of time and if i really want people to stay in touch they will txt me or w/e. I know that i only have a few real friends these days. My Depression has also taught me the truth of allot of things in life, good or bad. But hey this ain't some suicide note or anything just a new thought on my life and im perfectly ok with it.

Yeah, philosophy is fun. Grad school is always interesting insofar as you are surrounded by people who are working on the same stuff just as diligently as you are and that creates a fun environment.

Finished my paper on Marx and almost finished with my post-colonial/psychoanalysis paper. Now, I need to focus on Kant. I'm writing about how objects are necessary for the constitution of the subject. I'm literally writing about stuff.

Edit: Sitting at the coffee shop and this girl's thong and ass crack are totally hanging out. How could she not notice!? It's chilly, she's sitting relatively close to the door. How does she not notice a draft on her cheeks?